I am damn sian now,

but really contented and happy too, with that warm fuzzy feeling bubbling up inside



Let this be real.

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Sometimes I feel like I confine myself to a small circle of good friends and not bother to expand it and make more hi-bye friends and whatnot because I'm already contented with my small circle

But at least, this small circle rings true, and I can count on them forever. I think you guys know who you are, even if I haven't talked to you in ages or I don't talk to you everyday =) And I feel really popular just having these friends.

I don't think popularity is measured by the number of people who know/like you, but rather, the closeness and strength of relationships with people you know would always stand by you and support you no matter what. And the fact they are genuine and wonderful <3

I have been focusing too much on only a few people lately, but I really hope those whom I've sorta neglected still keep me close

(I still have the nasty nasty habit of forgetting people's birthdays. ARGH!)

Classmates, choir people, stnicks friends, 3girls1guyFAMILYYY, old friends... I wish I could juggle all of you at once, but I can't. None of you actually read this, but I am glad I am close/once used to be close to all of you, and I'll try catching up again in the hols. Now JC life's too busy to hang on to many old friends. And somehow, VJ feels surface-ish. There are definitely the substantial number of people who are good and friendly and fun and awesome, but definitely not as true and genuine as Stnicks used to be. Hard to sift out friends who you can rely on and trust, but at least I've found them. =)

I wonder if all JCs are like that, where there are such great varieties of people. People who fake their kindness/consideration, who act nice but spit on you secretly, who bitch, who backstab behind people's backs, who put up such a great front for power and in the end reveal all their flaws, who change for the new presence of the opposite gender, all lumped together. And the worst thing is, many people may still be oblivious to their false-ness. It's like a competition for popularity and looks in JC now =/ Like a much bigger number than there was in sec school, a totally different culture. But there are still people who are genuine, who you can confide in, who you can trust in, which I'm really glad I've found. (:

But yes, I will try my best to keep holding on... Hope you guys haven't forgotten me either... Thank you all for every single thing.

Wait till hols. Can't wait for after promos!!! (:

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Right, a rather plaintive, open post, for once

Feeling a bit nostalgic yet happy and really loved at the same time heh heh


Hope everything works out in the end now,