There are so many tests everyday it feels completely normal.

There are so many tests that I don't feel sad or demoralized when I realize I answered a 6mark question and a 2 mark question completely wrongly in Bio today because I didn't read the question properly (Muscles of iris in the eye - I bloody wrote about the CILIARY BODY which regards only the freaaaking LENS HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA) and what effect of whatever

I still have a thousand yue du ji cheng to do, and Emaths to study (which I happily proclaim I have not touched because I don't feel like it) and some blasted English summary.

I realise I sound rather vulgar in this post, but I am angry at the disgusting mountain of tests squashing us everyday.

I haven't even started on my own O Level revision and whatnot. And I am extremely tired from staying up consistently the past 4 weeks till past 12 midnight studying and waking up in the wee hours of the morning and subjecting myself to stupid, stupid sleep paralysis hallucinations by doing so.

Maybe that's because I have a horrible lack of time management, but we can't possibly be machines that spend our only, few, free hours cramming info into our brains, there must be a time for a break too.

Maybe I break too much.

Or maybe I'm just incredibly slack.

Maybe, maybe

and maybe I'm just so damn exhausted about everything that I don't feel like caring about anything anymore.

Too many things and too little time...

And I still haven't started Emaths at the grand time of 8.41 pm.

I wonder how those super duper hardworking people get all their drive from.

I really want to study too.

But I don't feel the slightest urge. I think the colossal number of tests has just vanquished all my love for all my subjects.


And there's just

Around 3 months to go.