i'm sad.
i feel nauseous.
does feeling sad make you feel nauseous?
yes i think it does make you feel nauseous.
i feel nauseous and i wanna puke all over my bio notes and curl up in some isolated forgotten place and hide from the world.
mm, bleahh, couldn't believe that she would actually do that to me. what good does she gain?
why would she want me to get into trouble, it's not as if it'll do me any good.
but why would she want to do this to me? doesnt she know it's not just about the game, it's about why why why her wanting to do this to me, why why why why. why am i banned in the first place.
cause i know i'm not addicted.
i play once in a blue moon.
why... there is no reason to why they suddenly limited my time, why i didn't check the time when i exceeded by accident, why they suddenly set such strict limits. why? last time i checked, it was because i scraped a pass for maths.
what's the reason. i asked my mum once, she said she "didn't wanna talk about it now". does she gain joy in banning me?
can't they let me have at least 1 hr of peace in that game, let me win, let me not hang at the bottom ranks anymore, let me believe that i'm actually good at something when i feel depressed and suck at everything else. it's my only outlet for stress.
it actually gives me the illusion that i'm good at something.
it gives me joy to actually win recognition.
when i believe that i'm good at nothing else, i resort to this.
it makes me happy. why doesn't she want me to be happy for 1 hour? 15 mins? 1 3min game? it's not affected my studies at all, my maths has been bad even since last year when i didn't play online games during schooltime. and i failed last year. this year i scraped a pass and they whammo, ban.
why,
even she doesn't get why.
even she doesn't understand.
and i thought that she would, but i guess i fooled myself.
i felt so shocked that she would do this to me. like she didn't understand. and i really believed she would. like everything shattered around me
sometimes i hate this world. and the mysteries and the confusion and why why why.
you know, it hurts.
its been a long long time since i felt this way.
i'm sad.
i feel nauseous.
does feeling sad make you nauseous?
yes I think it does.
people got me, got me questioning;
where is the love?
i feel nauseous.
does feeling sad make you feel nauseous?
yes i think it does make you feel nauseous.
i feel nauseous and i wanna puke all over my bio notes and curl up in some isolated forgotten place and hide from the world.
mm, bleahh, couldn't believe that she would actually do that to me. what good does she gain?
why would she want me to get into trouble, it's not as if it'll do me any good.
but why would she want to do this to me? doesnt she know it's not just about the game, it's about why why why her wanting to do this to me, why why why why. why am i banned in the first place.
cause i know i'm not addicted.
i play once in a blue moon.
why... there is no reason to why they suddenly limited my time, why i didn't check the time when i exceeded by accident, why they suddenly set such strict limits. why? last time i checked, it was because i scraped a pass for maths.
what's the reason. i asked my mum once, she said she "didn't wanna talk about it now". does she gain joy in banning me?
can't they let me have at least 1 hr of peace in that game, let me win, let me not hang at the bottom ranks anymore, let me believe that i'm actually good at something when i feel depressed and suck at everything else. it's my only outlet for stress.
it actually gives me the illusion that i'm good at something.
it gives me joy to actually win recognition.
when i believe that i'm good at nothing else, i resort to this.
it makes me happy. why doesn't she want me to be happy for 1 hour? 15 mins? 1 3min game? it's not affected my studies at all, my maths has been bad even since last year when i didn't play online games during schooltime. and i failed last year. this year i scraped a pass and they whammo, ban.
why,
even she doesn't get why.
even she doesn't understand.
and i thought that she would, but i guess i fooled myself.
i felt so shocked that she would do this to me. like she didn't understand. and i really believed she would. like everything shattered around me
sometimes i hate this world. and the mysteries and the confusion and why why why.
you know, it hurts.
its been a long long time since i felt this way.
i'm sad.
i feel nauseous.
does feeling sad make you nauseous?
yes I think it does.
people got me, got me questioning;
where is the love?
posted by Debbie at
12:58 AM
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