It's Christmas tomorrow

but I don't feel very Christmassy today


What am I to you now?


One moment my head's in the clouds
and the next, I plummet to the ground again

Stop giving me so much hope and after that
let me fall alone


I think a lot
about you

& I wonder
if you still really love me

You claim?

you do

But I don't


believe you anymore


because if i do, it
pierces stings of tears
into my eyes
and breaks my heart.
everytime I fall