I don't understand why my parents are so adamant against me simply going out to study with my friends. It's the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard, not allowing me to consult my friends for topics and questions I don't understand. What, they want me to flunk my Chemistry test with flying colours? If noone else in the freaking household is willing to teach me Chemistry who the hell else would I be able to ask?

"DON'T ARGUE ANYMORE. I DON'T WANT HER TO GO OUT," screams my father.

What the hell.

Aren't they concerned for the state of my O Level results? Why must I study in my own house when all I'd do would use my own computer and my friends would get distracted and my younger siblings would be yelling their heads off and disrupting the whole 'studying'?

Isn't it so much more effective if I went somewhere else with my friends to freaking STUDY, TO ACTUALLY STUDY WITHOUT ANY DISTURBANCES AND SCREAMING AND YELLING AND COMPUTERS WITH ALL MY DATA STORED INSIDE?

My father is the one who I am especially furious at. I'm so angry right now I feel like I'm going to burst, a horrible choking feeling in my throat that threatens to POP and I really feel like yelling at him, yelling all my reasons, trying to explain that this is going to do GOOD to me and how the hell can I study in my own HOUSE, HIS house when there are stupid retards bellowing at me and scolding me and screaming for no particular reason?

JUST BECAUSE I WANT TO GO OUT AND STUDY WITH MY FRIENDS?

He wants me to flunk my O Levels, oh doesn't he?

Of course not being able to consult anyone for Chemistry in a peaceful place would fuel my intelligence and clear all my doubts!!!!!

Definitely, studying with friends would kill me and I would get -120392891327132/25 for my Chemistry.

Of course.

That's why my older sister is always allowed to go out and study with her friends because this year's her A Levels, and just because my year is O's there is no difference.

Oh yes, mine is lousy, underrated, O's, which I seemingly, supposedly, apparently, do not worry about and of course I "DON'T STUDY", of course "I USE THE COMPUTER TOO MUCH", if those were the cases

HOW COME
I HAVEN'T FAILED ALL THE TESTS THAT I'VE TAKEN!?

Must I flip open my books and study right in front of them so that they'll see my PROGRESS?!

I STUDY

WHEN THEY ARE NOT AROUND
WHEN THEY ARE COOPED UP IN THEIR ROOMS WATCHING TV

I AM DOWNSTAIRS
IN THE LIVING ROOM
OR IN MY BEDROOM

redoing maths sums over and over
reciting biology to myself

Of course I don't study.

Of course if I don't ask for help, I'll get full marks for my Chemistry



Sometimes I really don't understand.

Just because I am stupider than my sister, and I don't mug every possible minute, doesn't mean that I don't study for my tests and I don't give a damn about O's. That doesn't even freaking link to going out to study with my friends, what the hell, isn't that more beneficial? And yes, it is for me, especially for Chemistry which is so damn difficult for me to scrape a pass for even if I study. Just because I don't have my face buried in books studying and studying all the time, doesn't mean that I DON'T STUDY and I DON'T DESERVE TO GO OUT TO STUDY WITH MY FRIENDS, which I ACTUALLY NEED.

"She's very ill-disciplined - Stop arguing - I SAID STOP ARGUING-"

Stop arguing?

No.

No way.

I do not see why I do not have the privileges to study with friends like my sister does. Evidently it works, it's beneficial, it's so easy to share questions and clarify answers, and my house is the most disgusting place ever to study with friends because my stupid flirty brother will DISTURB US EVEN THOUGH MY FATHER CLAIMS HE WILL STOP HIM,

WHICH HE ALWAYS CLAIMS BUT HE HAS NEVER BEEN ABLE TO DO SO.

His lack of reason is simply amazing, soon he'll cause me to get 30 points for O levels due to his insistence that I stay at home in a completely freaking lousy noisy screamy environment with my stupid brother shrieking his head off and my nanny yelling and my father yelling at me to do work every single second because he believes that I do not do my work or study when I'm not in his sight just because MY COMPUTER

IS IN HIS AND MY MUM'S ROOM

SO DUH WHEN I USE THE COMPUTER FOR LIKE 1 HOUR (AT MOST) for weekdays, LOOKS LIKE I'M NOT STUDYING AT ALL, EH?!

AND THE TV IS ALWAYS FREAKING ON SO HOW DO I RECITE MY NOTES TO MYSELF AND STUDY WHEN DJOKOVIC IS SLIDING ACROSS CLAY COURTS HITTING TENNIS BALLS ALL THE TIME

They'd tell me to shut up.

Omg I'm furious.

This is so damn ridiculous and absurd. Whose parents DOESN'T ALLOW THEM TO GO OUT TO STUDY?!

Chem test on Tuesday, and I seriously, honestly, do not want to fail.