i don't look forward to English anymore.

miss goh left on monday. on jubilate joey told me she was going and i felt super lost and stared at my court shoe for 15 minutes not doing anything. when i looked up i realised jing and co. had already put on their makeup while i was stoning.

i felt so horrible throughout jubilate and merely stoned the whole way, thinking about miss goh and i prayed for her a lot a lot. i can't believe something so terrible could happen to such a pretty, wonderful young teacher. she's so pretty and nice and everything. i sang so super terribly for jubilate cause my thoughts were choked with her, about what happened, and why this had to happen, and hoping really hard she'd get well.

miss goh is the only teacher that has actually encouraged me and supported me all the way.

she's the only teacher that has made me go so far.

i have slept in all lessons except English and English Lit. she's just so cheerful and bright, her eyes sparkling, her nicenice pretty smile dancing on her lips. her smile is super genuine too, and her voice is really calming and nice, and she says really encouraging things. she's never said that we were bad or anything like most teachers do, ever. and she has this thing about her that makes us all perk up and listen.

she's so amazingly wonderful. i really really miss her. on wednesday, two day before jubilate, she returned our english compre papers. while i recited my screwedjapshow-and-tell to myself, she patted my head and pretended it was a stop button. Then she said in an undertone that i shouldn't have so little self confidence (because of my speech) and that i really had a lot of potential, and the way she said it was really encouraging. she smiled cheerfully and held up a clenched fist in support, telling me that i must definitely join CAP next year.

i'll join for you, miss goh. and i'll write an essay about you. because you're the one who's made me set my mind to join it.

and i must get in for her.

haven't posted for one week. thanks to all those wonderful people who kept my tag alive despite my death. tan was gay as usual. oh well.

i kinda like my sop1 juniors, heh. and i embarrass myself in choir super many times lah D: yesterday only sec2s and 1s. =x joey student conductor! my tsangpapa was president! jiayi vice! i took attendance and screwed up loads cause i didn't know the juniors' names and went around embarrassing myself. ohho thanks juniors! who helped me with the attendance cause i didn't know who was who =x

i fold these little cubey boxes in class now. haha. takes my mind off things. but the prob is i don't listen in class cause of it =D

*thinks* oh wait, i never listen in class. i only listen when miss goh's there.



1000 paper swans make a miracle. please make it come true for miss goh. she doesn't deserve this.